So after this pull and tug motion that went on for months with my BF and I , despite how utterly gorgeous , sweet and perfect he was to me . I just knew I couldn't be with him at this time . I needed time and space to grow on my own. And taking the responsibility of him, his daughter and previous divorce was not easy . So I finally made the leap , and it took me REALLY long time to get here. It did not end pretty. It was messy . I definitely learned it hurts more to hold on to something that just isn't working anymore then to let go . Just let go.
So i moved into this cute little apartment with my friends on the other side of town. Booked tour and headed to California . My goal was to make enough money to save and invest in a home/studio space in the arts district , clear my head, catch up with old friends and family and realign my focus on how to better pursue my career. It was hard to leave but it was an incredible journey ! The perfect medicine ! A few days upon arrival in Vegas, I couldn't help but feel this somewhat bitter feeling in the air. Of all that I left behind .. how would i continue to move forward ? I have memories of that challenging tie all over this place ! So I began to do the inner work and harder than ever so before. I realized if i was going to continue to move forward and attract the abundance I wanted , I need to really clear my space within . So i took the time to reevaluate and check-in with myself. I learned that I was just tired. Mentally , physically and emotionally drained. And my self-esteem had gone way down . Just overall feeling torn. So i practiced some daily affirmations , to remind myself to wake up and see the bigger picture !
Suddenly I get a call from my Europe connect. Of course, he asks me if I want to go to Europe ! Within only a few days .. I find myself in Sweden surrounded by the most beautiful, creative and successful men and women all gathered from different parts of the world. After Sweden I went to Spain, Amsterdam and London. I got the chance to work with worldly known artists , expand my network and portfolio . Learn some flamenco guitar in Spain , entirely immerse myself in the beauty and diversity of culture and have an adventure of a lifetime !
What a blessing.
I came back with my heart full and my mind empty. Free of any burdens , attachments or expectations. I can go anywhere, I can do anything., I am infinite. And so are you !
Somewhere someone once said something like " If it creates loss and confusion , abandon it . If it gives your soul purpose and meaning and makes you feel alive, follow it through til the end"
Next Stops .. Thailand & Egypt !