The Nectar of the Forbidden Fruit

Wow ! I cannot stress this enough. Life is one hell of a thing to happen to a person. These past few weeks, I have been up , down and all the way around. Learning to let go . Letting myself die and rise over and over again. Unlearning all that I thought I knew, to relearn the things I never knew, in a way I could have never known. Immersing in this vast unknown, i become more familiar with it. And in becoming more familiar with it, I realize the best thing we could know is that we know nothing at all. Remaining pure and open to anything is embodying everything through being nothing . Nobody from nowhere. The movements and objects that surround me do not define me. It is my personal energy. My way of reacting , My individuality , the gifts provided to me. My singing, dancing, arting, yoga , meditating. The things that get me going , that connect me to this pure channel that is higher than me. The things that will never leave me , the things that ride the waves of eternity with or without me . To me, these are the MOST TRUE things left in this world. Our true nature . Our natural state of being. Like the leaves grow on trees , I believe we are destined to just be. By creativity guiding our feet; like roots to our leaves, or rhythm to the beats, we are the birth of creativity ! I have learned many lessons throughout my life ; but none in comparison to the capacity I am learning at this point in time. Between balancing many things and fighting for the nectar of my personal journey the only verdict , is me. Living can be a heavy responsibility . We are devoured by perpetual decisions that we forget to remember the most important choice is the one you make right here right NOW . Stop thinking about doing it and just DO IT ! just live ! We have a choice . We can literally choose to be happy ! How? By doing the things that makes us feel so . Its simple. Im on a mission to rid myself of this domestication and human conditioning. it is SICKENING ! We are destined to immunity from this disease we carry . I choose me . I choose my natural state of being. NO! I will not work for anyone else other then myself. I am already a mental slave to myself so how can you ask me to be a slave to someone else ? I have no idea how I am going to maintain living this dream and ensure my financial stability and safety; but in a world that is ever so fleeting where death is the constant victory , do i really need to know anything ? To me, it is well worth the "risk." What is "risk" when our very existence is a huge one itself. I choose to fall in love . I choose to be vulnerable. Open and honest every step of the way . Not just with him , or with her, or the ones I love. But with everyone, with everything, with myself. I choose to die truly living a life. I hope I am not the only one on for this ride.